Photo: With his dog Gus in tow, Angie takes a break in his hotel room before his gig at Eddie’s Attic.
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Be quiet
The tear in Angie’s carotid artery was so fragile, surgery was deemed too risky. The doctors didn’t know what caused the tear; genetics might have been a factor, but the prognosis was simply that time would heal the wound.
Angie was stabilized and sent home where he was told he would have to sit very still until the artery could heal. He was warned that a quick turn of the head could cause serious damage; that coughing, laughing or vomiting could kill him.
Four days later, Angie bent down to pick something up and was overcome with a pain far worse than when he had the stroke. In the ambulance on the way to Savannah Memorial Hospital, an hour away, he thought he might die.
Again, Angie was stabilized. Again he was sent home with orders to sit still.
For three months, Angie sat in a chair staring at a palm tree.
Be quiet, he thought.
Over the years, when he had struggled off and on with depression, Angie’s mother had sent him books on tape featuring the teachings of spiritual leaders and philosophers such as Ram Dass, whose seminal work is a book called “Be Here Now,” which focuses on the importance of living in the moment.
During his convalescence, Angie finally found the time to listen to the tapes, and what they had to say spoke to the musician. He feasted on related YouTube videos and discovered Eckhart Tolle, whose teachings about living in the present echoed those of Dass. Tolle’s observation that, “When you look at something without naming it, you look through the stillness,” resonated with Angie.
Unable to work, Angie couldn’t think about the rock opera or the reality TV music show. He couldn’t finish the lyrics for the next album he was going to record. Those things represented the future. He learned through his injury how to stay purposefully grounded in the present: the here and the now.
But once Angie was healed, he began to look toward the future again. He was ready to return to his music career, and that meant learning how to perform again. He started with “Cry,” his greatest success to date. But while his muscle memory remembered how to form the chords, his mind couldn’t attach meaning to “C chord,” and he couldn’t remember the lyrics.
He was determined to play that song again.
Angie’s neurologist told him he needed to reconnect the parts of the brain that controlled melody and lyrics. He suggested that Angie practice naming items in his environment with a melody. Angie threw himself into the task.
A track from Angie's upcoming album "Life Is a Flower; Life Is a Gun," out Sept. 22, 2017.
At first, the melodies were slow. Angie would go to the grocery story and stare at an item, recognizing its contents but unable to name it. In time, as the words started to return, he picked up the pace until it became a bouncing, joyful melody.
He spent hours at the grocery store singing in a quiet voice, There’s the ketchup and the mustard/ I’m walking past the pickle jar….
Three months after the stroke, Angie returned to the stage in Decatur to fulfill an obligation he’d made before he got sick to record a live album at Eddie’s Attic over two nights. He was terrified he would forget the lyrics in the middle of a song. He warned the audience he wasn’t back to 100 percent yet. He needn’t have worried. He didn’t forget a lyric, but nearly a year later, he still can’t bring himself to listen to that show.
He appeared onstage again that fall for a benefit the Atlanta-based trio Francisco Vidal hosted to raise money for Angie’s medical expenses. Tin Roof Cantina in Atlanta welcomed a few hundred people and raised more than $8,000. The experience inspired Angie to keep pressing forward in his recovery.
Unfortunately, during the course of his recovery, his third marriage came to an end.
ABOUT THE STORY
For patrons of the Atlanta music scene in the late ’90s, Angie Aparo was a ubiquitous performer playing around town. Then he seemed to vanish for a while. He hadn’t stopped making music, though. In reality, he was playing in the big leagues up in Nashville, selling his songs to crossover country artists. But last year, he nearly vanished from this earth when he suffered a medical emergency that almost ended his life. The story of his return is nothing short of miraculous.
Suzanne Van Atten
Personal Journeys editor
svanatten@ajc.com

ABOUT THE REPORTER
Ellen Eldridge joined The Atlanta Journal-Constitution after a decade of freelance and community news reporting. She covers breaking news and occasionally writes features. She is married and has two children.
ABOUT THE PHOTOGRAPHER
Bob Andres joined the AJC in 1998. Born in San Francisco, he has held photography and photo editing positions in California, Florida and Georgia. A journalism graduate of San Francisco State University, Andres has also worked as the AJC’s metro photo editor, sports photo editor and has taught photojournalism at UGA and Cal State Hayward.
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